Even When I’m At My Darkest

Do you ever find one of those songs? You know, the one that you just can’t stop listening to. It just seems to speak directly into your soul. It’s almost like it was written just for you to hear. Well, I have one of those. I’ve found myself listening to this song a lot – daily, in fact. The song is called Even When I’m At My Darkest by Ascend the Hill. I’ve grown to love this band and their music, and this song just might be one of my favorites. Read these lyrics.

Before I took a breath, you knew me
You called me by my name
And even when I’m at my darkest
You know me all the same

And every hair on my head you’ve numbered
And every thought within
And even when I cannot see you
I feel you closer than my skin

And in my darkest dreams, they find me
My failures haunt me in the night
A broken image of creation
Twisting, turning, hiding from the light

And then, I heard a voice so clear
Like deep, calling, deep, and I could hear
I felt your spirit drawing near
Breathing life in me, destroying every fear

My spirit woke with a hopeful plea
Each fighting breath resonating in me
You broke the chains to set me free
You gave me a song to lift my eyes and see

Lift up your head (you won’t let me go)
Lift your head, cause help has come
Lift up your heart (you won’t let me go)
Lift your heart, his will be done.
Lift up your hands (you won’t let me go)
Lift your hands and praise the One
Lift up your song (you won’t let me go)
Lift your song, o ransomed son!

Before I took a breath, you knew me
You called me by my name
And even when I’m at my darkest
You know me all the same

Think about these words. Before I took a breath, You knew me…and even when I’m at my darkest, You know me all the same. Have you ever thought about that? When you are at the darkest moments in your life – maybe facing an illness, perhaps the loss of a loved one, possibly divorce – He is with us and knows us. He feels our pain and comforts us.

I’ve been there – at my darkest. I’ve wondered who really cares…thought why is this happening…felt totally alone. I’ve been reminded of past failures. And in my darkest dreams, they find me, my failures haunt me in the night, a broken image of creation, twisting, turning, hiding from the lightBut somehow, I’ve seen the light. I’ve felt peace in the midst of chaos. And then I heard a voice so clear, like deep calling deep, and I could hear, I felt your spirit drawing near, breathing life in me, destroying every fear. 

Maybe you are at your darkest. Maybe you are facing something and just feel alone. I hope you listen to this song, read the lyrics, and feel His presence. I hope you know that, even when you’re at your darkest, He draws near and covers you. Listen…feel His love for you…even in your darkest hour.

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