The past couple of days have been a mixed bag of emotions. There is just so much on my mind right now I’m not even sure where to start. Much of this is personal, but I felt the need to write it down and share…so here we go.
This week has been very busy as I’ve been catching up from being off work for a week. In the midst of that several things have come my way that have occupied my thoughts. Yesterday morning I received a message from a good friend asking me to pray for her. This is someone I care about very much, so of course I wanted to pray for her. But, I was also concerned about her, and she has been on my mind and in my thoughts since.
Also, yesterday would have been my friend Rick’s 56th birthday. Rick was one of those guys everyone liked, and he just had a way of making your day. He was like a brother to me. Sadly, Rick passed away suddenly and unexpectedly nearly 5 years ago. I think of my friend often, and especially miss him when his birthday rolls around. Of course the question is also once again raised – Why? Why was he taken so soon? I know God has a plan for everything, but that doesn’t make the loss any easier.
Today would have been my mother’s 64th birthday. Just like my friend Rick, my mom passed away suddenly and unexpectedly. She too was taken too soon. It has been nearly 7 years since she has been gone, and I still miss her so much. She was a great lady! Again, the same question creeps into my mind – Why?
Finally, this morning a friend from church shared on Facebook that her 14-year old daughter was hospitalized with pneumonia. I work with the middle school ministry at church, and those kids are near and dear to my heart. Hearing this sweet girl was in the hospital brought worry and concern to my mind. She is doing well and is in good spirits according to her mom, so that is a relief. I’ve prayed for this girl and her family all day.
There is just so much on my mind!
I’m also dealing with some personal decisions to be made. I’m not ready to share any details publicly at this time, but let me just say these aren’t easy decisions. I would appreciate some prayers for clarity and peace.
As I type I’m reminded that when life seems out of control, God is most in control. Regardless of the circumstances – personal problems, illness, death – He is in control. It isn’t easy to let go and turn situations over to Him, but that is what we should do. That is what I’m trying to do. I’ll pray for my friends and will be there for them, but I can’t solve problems or heal anyone. Thankfully, He can!