I just finished reading Save Me From Myself by Brian “Head’ Welch, former lead guitarist and founding member of the heavy metal band Korn. The book is subtitled How I Found God, Quit Korn, Kicked Drugs, and Lived to Tell My Story. I was amazed by Welch’s story. Parts of it seem almost impossible to believe, but then I’m reminded that all things are possible through Christ. I wanted to give a brief summary of the book and highlight what I took away from it.
First let me say that I have never been a Korn fan. I’ve always liked heavy metal, but I never got into Korn’s music. The only reason I had an interest in reading this book was because I saw Brian Welch’s video testimony on the I Am Second website. After viewing it I became interested in Welch’s story and finally decided to read the book. Here is the video.
On to the book summary. Basically the book tells the story of Brian Head Welch, his rise to fame with the band Korn, his battle with addictions, his salvation, and life after being saved. Welch begins by talking about his childhood and follows along his career path, all the way to the top of his rock and roll lifestyle. He talks at great length about his many addictions…alcohol, drugs, pornography, money…and how he was trapped in their grip for years. Then, one day in 2004, after going to church with a friend, he accepted Christ and totally turned his life around.
That is a brief summary. I recommend you read the book for the whole story. What I really want to talk about is what I took away from reading it. I would like to share an observation and some truths about the awesome power of God. Let’s start with the observation.
- Brian “Head” Welch should not be alive! OK, I’m sure you’re wondering what I’m talking about. While reading I couldn’t believe the amounts and types of drugs this man put into his body. He talks about doing meth and staying awake for days. Considering how much crap he used and abused I just don’t see how his body survived. But, I guess the reason is one of the truths I’ll discuss.
- God has bigger plans for us than we know. I think the reason Welch survived all the drug use was because God had a bigger plan for him all along. You see, I think God has a plan for everyone. Sometimes we have to go through trials before we see His plan. Other times we may choose to do things outside His will before we see what He has planned for us.
- Nothing we have done is too bad for God’s forgiveness. I think some people think they have been too bad in their lives for God to love them and forgive them. That is simply not true. His desire is for us to seek His love and forgiveness, so that we may trust in Him alone for our salvation. Welch finally figured that out.
- Too often we try to fill our lives with something other than Christ. For Welch it was drugs, sex, money, alcohol. He spent years filling his life with chemicals, when all he really needed was Jesus Christ. Once he realized he didn’t need all that other stuff he learned to depend solely on God for everything. We’re all like that. It might not be an addiction to drugs, but we try to fill our lives with something. Maybe it is a job, a relationship, or a hobby. We are trying to find fulfillment in something, when what we really need is someone…Jesus. Like Welch, we need to learn that we cannot be truly happy until we strive daily to walk with Christ and turn to the Father for everything.
I’ll end this post with a passage from the book, found in the opening pages of chapter 8. These words stuck with me, and I feel they reveal what is truly in Brian “Head” Welch’s heart. I also think it is how I should look at my own walk with Christ.
Ever since that intense week when I quit Korn and had my last drug binge, I have dedicated myself to living a life of purity through the power of the Holy Spirit. I’m not saying I’m perfect; I just try as best as I can, but there is no way I could do it with my own strength. I try to live life with minute-by-minute obedience to God because I want to. Not because I have to…He deserves everything that I am, so for the rest of my life, I’m going to try and give him everything that I am. Again, I’m not claiming to be some Holy Roller that lives a perfect, sin-free life. I screw up all the time, but when I do, I get up, dust my knees off, and keep walking with God.