Have you ever doubted God? Would you admit to doubting God? Most of us wouldn’t, but that’s exactly what I’m doing. I began thinking about writing this post Tuesday night but put it off because I wasn’t sure I should even do it. However, after today’s message from our pastor (Mark Marshall) I knew I needed to post this.
This week has been a roller coaster of emotions for me. I was excited about a job interview, then disappointed when it didn’t turn out to be what I had hoped for or expected. I was praying Tuesday and was frustrated. I was seriously doubting whether God was listening or if he even cared. I remember distinctly saying this to God. “If you are who you say you are then prove it!” (Not too smart on my part.) The doubt monster had reared its ugly head, and I was pouring out my emotions. I felt a little better after getting everything off my chest and went on about my business not really thinking much about it.
Later Tuesday night I received a message via Twitter from someone asking me to call him. When I did I was told about something that, if happened, would be an answered prayer. Well, I guess God decided He would “prove it” because on Saturday I received an unexpected and generous blessing. I would say He pretty well put my doubts to rest.
I told Mark (our pastor) today that I’m amazed at how many times I can sit in church, listen to his sermons, and feel that they were meant just for me. God definitely knows what we need to hear at just the right time. Mark gave us Jesus’ response to doubt in his message.
For the sincere believer, Jesus gives us just what we need when we need it to enable (or grow) our faith.
Based on my experience this week (and in the past) I’ll say that is exactly right!
Mark also gave two ways to deal with doubt. One was to admit the doubts, and the other was to take them to Jesus. I’m admitting my doubts right here on this blog. And, I’ve already taken them to Jesus. I know who He is and am so thankful that He understands when we have doubts. It is such a blessing to know that He shows up and gives me just what I need exactly when I need it so that my faith in Him might be strengthened.
It is such a blessing to know that I’m not the only one who has struggled with doubts in Jesus and His abilities from time to time. It is also comforting to know that He takes my doubts and turns them into a deeper, more abiding faith in Him. Praise God that He proved His power to me this week. Blessed be the name of the Lord!