I thought I would begin today’s post by giving a quick recap of the path I’m walking. After 8 years at my job I decided to resign. What led up to that decision is a long story for another time, but I knew the time was right for me to go. So, after much prayer and discussion I submitted a notice and left. Fast forward to today…six weeks later…here I am still unemployed, but searching. I know what you’re thinking…How are you right where you are supposed to be? I’ll get to that shortly.
First let me say that Monday was a bad day. A really, really, horribly, awful, bad day! All of the disappointment, worry and stress of not having a job, combined with financial difficulties, came to a head and punched me in the gut. Monday brought an array of emotions for me…anger, guilt, depression, inadequacy. I had a mental (and physical) meltdown Monday. I really didn’t feel like doing anything or even talking to anyone. I was angry at myself, feeling like I had made a mistake and was letting my family down, and I was mad at God for not answering my prayers. I felt just like the Psalmist who wrote:
LORD, why do You stand so far away?
Why do You hide in times of trouble?
Psalm 10:1 (HCSB)
It just wasn’t a good day!
Fortunately Tuesday was better. I even felt like I could pick up the book I was reading again and read at least another chapter. That book is Plan B by Pete Wilson, and chapter 4 is what led me to today’s post.
I began reading Plan B about a week ago. I have not really been in much of a mood to read lately, so I’m only a few chapters in. Last night I read chapter 4 and thought (to myself and aloud) that Pete Wilson may have written this book just for me. In chapter 4 Wilson tells the story of Joshua when he is just about to lead the Israelites into the promised land. The first thing God instructs him to do in step (in faith) into the flooded, raging Jordan River. They are trying to get to the life God has planned for them, but to do that they have to get through this obstacle that is in front of them. God has promised He would lead them, but as Wilson states, they have to make the first step in faith.
But (and this is a big but) they have to take the first step. They will not see God’s power, they will not experience his faithfulness, until they get their feet wet.
I’m in my Jordan now. I have taken that first step in faith by quitting my job and trusting that God will lead me to where He wants me to be. That part was really not too difficult for me. The hard part is now…waiting on His timing and remaining faithful to let Him lead me. In the latter part of chapter 4 Wilson relates a surfing experience to trusting God. Two key points he gives the reader are these.
- Be Ready. Always be ready, positioned just right and listening for God’s call.
- Trust His Timing. God’s timing is always right. Faith and trust mean we have to wait for His perfect timing.
That leads me to the title of this post. Why am I right where I’m supposed to be? Well, let me say that over the past 6 weeks I have heard and/or read something like “I’m exactly where God wants me to be” about 6 or 7 times. The most recent was last night in chapter 4.
So what happens next with Joshua? This might be hard to believe, but even though he and his people face a seemingly impossible barrier, they’re exactly where God wants them to be.
I’ve heard or read that phrase too many times during this process to doubt that it is true. I took a step in faith to be where I am now, and I truly believe I’m right where I’m supposed to be. Yes, I have fears and doubts (some days more than others), but I still hold firm to my faith that God will lead me where He wants me to go. I know He is with me every step of the way. He has brought me to this point and will lead me on, providing everything I need along the way, just as He did for the Israelites. Pete Wilson referenced Psalm 31:15, and that will be the verse I lean on when I start feeling scared, doubtful, or depressed. My life is in His hands!
The course of my life is in Your power; deliver me from the power of my enemies and from my persecutors.